Doubting Thomas (for Barbara Anne)

Thomas, for sure, was a doubter,
a believer, too, as we all are
if we choose to be honest.

What is there is air,
nothing solid to see, put a hand on;
not a strand of hair or freckle.

While we in this rational world
may be stuck on sense,
we rely even more on mathematics.

If we cannot touch,
we rely on computer calculations:
the new sixth sense.

Still, validity rests on experience,
what we see or feel
in our search for God.

We are never sure,
stuck helplessly between belief
and doubt.

That’s the test of faith.
But the issue is not belief,
but action taken,

a simple stepping out on air,
a step of trust
as in marriage and having children:

which may turn out wrong,
mistakes being a part of life,
and right a function of time.

Trust can never be the subject of computing
nor of sight,
taste, touch or smell.

Trust cannot be heard
or casually measured in time.
Its effects, however, are eternal.